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Tuesday, September 9, 2014

Modify

I came to a realization as I labored my way through my workout today.

It deals specifically with writing, but has general tones of resilience, so if that piques your interest, read on, dear blog-peruser.

Today is one of those days that motivational people write about, where crap keeps going wrong, work keeps piling up, people are stupid, you’re tired and feel like crap, you’re over-committed, run ragged, just need to buckle down and do the work, no matter what.

The problem is that I WANT to do the work. I don’t WANT to do anything else other than sit down and do the work. I want to write, I want to be in flow. I want the words to sail out of my fingertips and be perfect and honed and crafted and make my readers laugh and cry and want to go kiss their sweethearts because they are so moved by my brilliance…

Nope.

Not happening.

Nada.

I have shown up and been at the workstation most of the day. I write a sentence and delete it. I think of a starter phrase and dismiss it. I think I have a brilliant thought and it dives off over a ledge, into the weeds, and ends in some kind of shocking, gory way straight out of A Million Ways to Die in the West.

I don’t feel brilliant. I barely even feel pithy. But I what I do feel is the driving, almost consuming need to do work. So where is the advice on what to do with that?

I did what any sensible person needing information would do: I went and did Insanity and watched a show on Netflix.

And that’s when the epiphany hit.

Modify.

I do Insanity most days of the week. There are still some moves that kick my fucking ass. Around the worlds are especially brutal. So today, when that move came up, and my body hurt, my heads all stuffy from a cold, my throat is still sore, and my nose won’t stop running, what did I do?

I did two jumps forward and two jumps back for time and called it good.

Was it my goal of doing the move so fast and clean and well that I kicked all the asses of the people in the video and looked good doing it? No. Not only no, but hell no.

And you know what?

I’m good with that.

Because a little bit of something, keeping moving, keeping afloat, is better than doing nothing and sinking. So that, my friends, is today’s two cents. To modify, adjust course, and keep on rowing, we’re all in this together.

Have you visited Harper Bliss’s blog yet to check out Rachel O. Esplanade’s interview? Why not, it’s the next stop on the Forbidden Fruit blog tour! Get your cute butt over and check it out pronto! ;-)

And while you’re at it, do me a favor and have a really great day.

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